It's really hard to blog, mainly because that was something H encouraged me to do while he was here. It was like one of "those things" that we had together, and now that he's gone it's hard to make myself keep going with it. It's the reason I don't craft anymore, the reason I can't bring myself to play our old video games, and why I haven't been baking. I just don't feel like doing these things without my husband here, so I've just been ignoring them.
I'm trying to force myself to get back to blogging, because being an Army wife doesn't mean that I have to stop everything just because he's gone. In fact, if anything, that's the time I need to keep doing it in order to keep life as normal as possible. The separation sucks, by the way, but I'm dealing with it. I have an amazing support system that keeps me going, but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't counting down the sleeps until we're back together again at his graduation. I know that God's plan is being fulfilled, so I'm trying to stay patient and remember that this time apart is all part of His plan. But some days, it really sucks... :)
So I'm trying to get back on track with the Whole30 program. H sent me pics of him, and he's lost so much weight and trimmed up so much! I don't want him to be disappointed that I'm not losing as much as he has (although his workout plan is way more intense than mine is haha!) so I'm trying to get back on track. I'm going to try to blog it more, too, because hopefully that will keep me focused, too.
Day 1
-Breakfast: egg mcmuffin without the muffin
-Lunch: taco salad with s.cream and jalapenos
-Dinner: crockpot ribs from PaleoPot and corn on the cob
Day 2
-Breakfast: scrambled eggs with bacon
-Lunch: bunless burger, corn on the cob, and fresh veggies
-Dinner: leftover ribs and salad (tentatively, since it's only 3:15pm right now)
So far so good--even though it's only been 2 days. I'd really like to add running, but I'm having a hard time getting my butt in gear. I think I'm just going to have to force myself to hit the gym. I wish I had more determination, easier access to a Crossfit gym, and someone to do it with, but I guess for now I'll have to suck it up and work with my circumstances...
xoxo, M
